As a single parent, regetfully sometimes I get very bogged down and frustrated. Landon is teething right now so he is miserable more than he is happy. I am stressed over work or lack there of, money bills and everything else. He does not understand that and will not for many years. This past week I have witnesseed someone I know go through the most angishing experience any parent could face though and it's made me realize what all I have been taking for grated accidentially. I have known what she was facing for several weeks however the impact did not affect me until this past week when her baby was born. This amazing young woman from my home town found out in January that her child she was expecting had anacephaly( that's where the brain and skull do not develop properly). Most women in her situation will choose to abort the pregancy; Holly choose to carry the baby to term. She faced 4 months of pregnancy knowing her baby would die shortly after he was born. She had Baby Thomas on Last Friday morning and was told that he may not live beyond a few hours. Thomas, being a fighter like his mother, lived a very busy 2 and a half days. Praying for this young woman got me thinking though; it made me realize how lucky we are as parents and how much we take for granted. Never will Holly get to curl up in bed with little Thomas' and smell his fresh washed hair as he snuggles her. Never will she see his first day of school or watch him graduate from high school. Everytime I have prayed for her I realize how much of Landon's life is passing me by in the daily grind. It's not a chore to get up @ 2 am and put him back to sleep when you consider there is a Momma @ home crying right now because her baby is not there. It's not a chore to get off the computer (job hunting) and go for a walk in the park. My honest and sincere prayer is that I will forever think of Thomas and his brave mother Holly anytime I think I am too busy to do something for my child. Holly your sweet Thomas has changed more lives than you will ever know; I also know that your sweet pure human heart does have the little part of you that says but did it have to be me? For some reason it was and I am honored to have been praying without ceasing for you, Thomas. You have changed so many of us for the better!!!
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Shortly after I wrote this another woman from our town faced the same challenge. She too knew her baby had serious birth defects but refused to abort her child. She had baby Faith about a week after Thomas's service. Knowing the angusish these two moms feel reminds me daily to never take a min I have with Landon for granted even when it is hard, I am tired, worried about how bills are going to get paid and worn out and just want to take a nap.
