Reflections for a Year Ago

1/30/2011

A year ago today my life changed forever. I found out I was going to be a mom. I remember being so scared and worried about how I was going to raise Landon on my own. In the last year I have found out I have more strength in me than I ever knew I had. I have learned to stand my ground( something some friends thought I may never do). I have learned that I can overcome more obstacles than I give myself credit. I am so different. Anyone who knows me well knows that I would not have been ever considered wanting to stay here and waiting until next year to find a permaenent job. They know how bad I wanted to leave this town now it's different. I see how Landon interacts with my family and that's more important than any thing. He adores his grandparents. No matter how much my heart longs to move; I just cannot bring myself to do that to him @ this point. Funny how things change. I remember being so ashamed of the situation I would not even want to go to the store here once I started to show. I remember how I cried everynight because I felt like I let everyone down. I remember my babysitter from when I was younger telling me to hold my head up high because she did it years before me. I remember praying countless nights that things will work out. Here are some of the things I have learned in this last year.

1. Doors close for a reason; don't question it.
2. God has a bigger plan in mind even when you do not understand.
3. Once a mom a less stressfull life is something we dream about but not a reality. Stuff happens
4. Roll with it; it seems like yesterday that lady was telling me I was pregnant, now he's almost 4 months old.
5. Yes we are that old don't rub it in and ask...it's rude..lol!!
6. If a caterpillar can become a butterfly...imagine what you can become....
7. Plan B is not always as bad as it seems.
8. Trust you instincts they are probably right; even when everyone says it may be wrong.
9. Think outside the box you never know the posbilities.
10. No matter how bad things get, the best way to end a bad day is with someone in your arms who thinks you are the world.
11. Nothing brightens your day like a smile from a baby....:)