Way too Long

I have been working nonstop since I moved and now we are moving again. Life is changing quickly before us. Landon is growing like crazy and I feel like I miss half of it I have to work so much. I am trying to find a higher paying job somewhere so we have more time together. Its sad that I have worked so much this past year that I could have commuted from my parents to my job and seen my child more. That's 70 miles one way; if you take the time I worked a second job every weekend and add it to what I worked for the school it's more than a commute and one job. I  feel like I have missed so much time I can't get back. I am the evil lady who takes him to daycare. I pray constantly for a different situation, yet true to Robin form when that situation begins to arrise I panic and freeze dead in my tracks. This is not the life I want for my child. I ask myself constantly what to do because I know it's not the life God wants for us either. I know that He wants a life for us where I can be a positive roll model to him and still be home to teach him right from wrong. I don't want to be so busy worrying about putting food on the table that I miss the special times with my child. I know before I blink my baby boy will be a young man starting a life of his own and I don't wanna miss a thing. I am not worried about fancy houses or cars or designer clothers. I just want a simple life where I can enjoy my child. This is my heartfelt prayer for us. I honestly could careless about the size of my home, only the ammount of love that is within it's walls.
It amazes me how much this one little life has changed my thinking and my purpose. I used to put so much stock in where I worked, what I did and how many numbers were in front of the comma on my paycheck. Now I honestly don't care as long as bills are paid and I am home with my child when it matters. I pray I figure out what is next because the road is getting long and hard and I am getting tired. I need something to give me new energy and feel the excitement of life again. I pray this journey we are on right now will provide the energy I am looking for, new possiblities always seems to give me new life and excitement. Praying that happens again.

Till next time...prayers go with you... :)