Life is currently kicking my butt all over the place. Everything is so up in the air, I don't know which end is up. I am trying to juggle two jobs, moving, raising a little boy to be a responsible man...my plate is over flowing more and more each day. I worry about how I am going to recover from the last year of not working and save up money. I owe more people money than anyone should ever owe. If I am not carfull I start panicing. My family wants to help but on their own terms. I understand they have lives themself but they do not understand I wish to do what I feel is best for my child even when it's not convient or fun. His little world has been turned upside down by this move, I need to keep as much stablility as possible. Some people get that, but they want to help on their terms. Their terms are not what's best for my child.
Everyone has an opinion about what's best for us. I don't need your opinion @ this point just your support. I have taken the job, moved and made the leap of faith your opinion was not given during the interview apartment hunting process everyone sat their with their mouth shut but now they open their mouth and want to tell me what I need to do after the fact. It doesn't work that way. Sorry...it doesn't.
am I hestant about this move, yes I am but not to the point that I need everyones advice, just a pat on the back and a little encouragement does my worried heart wonders @ this point. I am clinging to my faith with all my might, others are testing my faith and making me wonder if I am making the right decisions or doing the right thing. I need my doubting tomas' to keep their thoughts to themselves. I promise I have played out every single horrible bad thing that could happen over and over. I need encouragement and love right now not your criticism.
I need people to realize I am not going to let my past determine my future anymore. I am not a product of my past mistakes and failures. I am moving past those and you need to also, if you can't then perhaps we have nothing to say to each other anymore! Not trying to be rude or sound like a heifer but I am putting it all out on the table tonight.
I want what's best for my child...understand it please!!!
Sorry to rant I just had to get this off my chest!
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