Well Landon is 6 weeks old on Monday. We have already made more road trips than any newborn should have to take. Glad he sleeps well in the back seat of a car.
I have had my surgery. The doctor's are optomomistic that this is the only surgery I'll need. Thank you Lord! I am not sure how I would juggle a newborn and many more of these. I went into surgery thinking "I had a c-section" and managed fine from recovering from that and taking care of him..this won't be much different. For the record you use your neck muscles 200 million more times in a day than you do your abs...explains why we don't have alot of neck fat. LOL :)
I never knew it could hurt so bad just to sneeze, cough or clear my throat. My voice is all scratch and I'm praying that it heals properly but I'm not sure yet how I will sound. I'm praying I can still sing too but the vertict is still out on that one too. To top it off I have absolutely no thryoid hormone in my body until we do the body scan to know they got all the cancer with surgery. So I am not even more of a zombie than most new moms. I have also been told I will become more lethargic, emotional, depressed and have a strong chance of weight gain...these are not words any woman who just had a baby needs to hear!
We are doing alot better now that we know my little one is alergic to milk protien and has acid reflux. The doctor's remedies are working. Only time will tell if he will out grow either of these ailments.
So much has changed in the last 6 weeks. As I was having a baby, one of my best friends started a new relationship. Between taking care of the baby and him with a new girlfriend we hardly ever talk. It's hard at times that someone I talked to almost everyday during my pregnancy now only calls here and there. I realize now how much I took him for granted just assuming he would always be around. Wow I was selfish.
Landon is growing like crazy. My dad still has not met him in person. He will be home Monday morning. I can't wait for him to meet him. I have to get tons of pictures because my dad works out of town so he won't see Landon too much until he retires...I hope that's soon.
Landon is staying awake alot more during the day but still is a night owl for a couple hours late at night. He's making so many more noises and holding his head up more. He's changing so fast. I uploaded some pictures today from my camera and I honestly could not believe how much he's grown in the last month and a half. I happen to have 2 pictures about a month apart of him in the same onzie and it's amazing how baggie that thing looked on him a month ago versus today.
I have people still questioning my decisions regarding Landon's Father. I honestly just wish people would respect my decision and let it go. He is not a part of our lives...that's it..I get tired of people bringing up old hurts. I feel like this is his loss not mine and certianly not Landon's.
I don't owe explainations to acquantances or friends. I will owe explainations to my son and will explain when he is old enough to understand. Enough said..
God will get Landon and I through anything. While our journey is only begining we are already fighting cancer, surviving surgery and colic all in one week. :)
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